Back to Uni? or perhap I shall call it "Start Work"

Please don't get wrong on date. It's should be 5th of  September 2012.

*stretching finger, neck and rolling eyes* How shall I start?

Coming back again to uni life-UTM, seriously was not what I really feel good reason. But this time coming back as "dinosaur (symbolic of postgraduate which are old people)", was really smooth compare to first time entering to uni. At least I exception for the tiring orientations week....lols.

Anyway, come back again this time really feel some emptiness in previous back uni life. Things that I still not comfortable with all side:

1. changing of room and block- this time more nearest to jungle side, which mean more monkeys will come to attack/visit mine room..... *please don't ransack mine room, Mr. Monkey *

2. 75% of friends was not visible again in uni- especially mine course mate, without them I totally not good in arranging class section and time, plus extra note.... and mingle, hang out, gathering and lunch.... cannot miss  38 session (Hokkien's slang language mean gossip )

3. no more wake up for morning class... no more trunk class... no more late entering class too(use to do by me when I was overslept)..

4. 80% of day-time is use to facing monitor, and stay in room doing own research...having bad feeling, someday I will become "sei gan mui/zai"(Cantonese slang mean spectacle girl)..... not exception might having back pain and become "zai nui"(Mandarin slang mean nerd girl or homegirl)

5. messy time schedule - because most time is doing own work(also equal too many free time if I lazy to do it)... so how am I managing mine time?----work-->eat-->sleep..*fainted!*

After 1 week of previously days, I felt I am on working life rather study life, just get paid less... but 30 days holiday..woop...hooo

p/s: yesterday was MIA of AIESEC of UTM, saw back all junior AIESECer and start crazy.... miss back those days back with EB on mine term....

Stay tune.....

BRs,
mic 

Question, Answer & Decision in life?

recall back when you small and being kid, this kind of typical question will pop up....

Q:learning bike or not?
D:learn lah... can speed up ley, why not? end up racing and bump each other..>.< (my version)

Most of the time, the decisions was taken by parents.... we just follow them.
But when it goes until a certain level, the decision power slowly goes to us. "It's the time to use your brain, stupid!" yelling answer gotten when ask parents again for small matter stuffs.

From secondary get to University, we already making some of the decisions that changing our life story and also path. We always facing lot of miserable questions by time to time. E.g.: "where you wan to study?", "what course you like to choose", "what you gonna be in future", "which area?", "private or government?", "ptptn or jpa".......... only 2 answer typically can heard " I dunno" and "cincai (mean whatever)" ...... but always at the end only we know "there actually no have many choices fou you... OMG!!"  


Now University to reality working life, again all the qestions pop up again. "where you going after this?", "Master/PHD or company?", "local or oversea?"... and most of the time there is no answering at first, just a deep gasp"HAIZ!". Decision power totally goes to us, but there are too many sub attraction and limitation have to consider such as family, interest, value/money, sustainable....etc.

KC told me a phrase: Decision is make from outsources like research, listening other experiences and other's neededs. If one is uncomplete, the decision cannot be make up perfectly. And the internal requirements are analysis(brain) and heart.   

Tips: if you cannot make the choices, then just knock all of the doors, and let them find you back. Somehow you can't make up for first time but at least second time will be coming again if regreting and that time will be more clear!

WISH and HOPE

One day I saw a boy, who sitting on the wheel chair look unhappy. His smiles goes down but the eyes was glimmering staring on a group of friends playing "cop and robber" in front. He try to stand up with clenched his teeth and endure the pain of body, just to see friends playing on the different view(look them by standing is different 50cm compare sitting)... But he fail!! However he didn't give and try again for the second attempt, third attempt...and so on. Every pedestrian who passing him, have a weird look on him, pity look on him. But all this irritated eyes look had totally ignored by this boy. In his mind, he will think that everyone thought it is useless to try, he just get himself more pain and worst; go back home, wheel chair's boy; mission impossible...etc. The only things in his mind was wish to stand up and look his friends with +50cm view by own!!!

Every single human in this world is thinking to make own wish come true, but sometimes it may not get smoothly as thought. The more eager to make wish wish come true, the more disappointment will get by the end. That's why people think rather than no wish, than perhaps won't suffer so much; wish only bring come the pain. But just because the existence of wish, no matter how hard we feel, how pain it was, how hurt it may; we can endure all of it. Even thought the outcome was scary, hurting, and unhappy; we still can not lost of it.

Hopes!! for a lot of people, it contain different meaning of this word. Everyone have the unique hope in life and live in this world. Some hope is for own sake; some hope is for other people sake; but nobody in this world can guarantee the hope will be fulfilled by the end of days. Since there was no guarantee on it, shall we still strong holding on believe it??? W.Shakespeare did wrote this : "Hope is the only strong medicine that can cure any hard disease/pain".  When one human is suffering of pain, hope just alike a warm songs that can comfort the pain.  

Is good if own hope can be fulfilled, but sometime it will lead to hope  disappointment on others people. Give up on any of it, will definitely need huge of scarify. Nobody can tell you how to make the decision unless "you" yourself!

When we saw the scene of a football player refuse to cutting down some damage/infected legs from his body, but still insist have it for once again hope to standing/playing on the field. Sometime, some hope seem unrelated to us, and then we will puzzle on why this/that fellow crazy on protecting the infected leg, the virus will spread to other body system and causing death, since it already impossible for him to play football and the hope is just mission impossible. But if we putting heart on feeling it, we will realise that no matter how big/how small was the hope, we had to respect it. No matter what come in the end, if we still can hoping and be hope, it was lovely. And just because we still breathing in this earth, if hope can not be realise, there will be another new hope take lead along our life journey, until our last breath!

 

"I WISH smile will always on my friend's face!!"

"I HOPE to have power for changing a better day of tomorrow!!" 

p/s: hope she saw this, and be tough! be happy!

I will Fight!!!!

Once again I'd inspired by the drama. A drama name "On Call 36 hours" , storyline about the life experiences of a bunch of practical doctors who will become real doctor in future. They have to always switch on the phone and be on duty for 36 hours. Pretty tough! Can the mentally be survive for it? That's why I always proud and repect on them. Even they have to facing the probability dead of people that lay on the operation bed. This is not a simple task, cause no one can be no feeling for a single life or even it is unrelated.

I learned something from few scene inside the drama. As an professional occupation, I cannot give up just because I haven't try our best to do it, haven't try to over exceed our limitation; I cannot said cannot do it and hard to do it if I didn't do more.

Even the probability to succeed is only the merely 0.001% chance and hope, I still cannot give up. Because someone is having faith on me, someone is expecting on me. If this is a huge burden for me, how about the burden of the one who having faith on me, he/she might suffering burden more than what I can imagine it. So if wan to compare it, I just far far away better then them.


So, I decided to acheive the 0.001% chances and hopes. I will Fight!!!!

Aged around 20's of me

Michelle? Michew? Michel?Mic?...Ahha, what ever you pronounce, as long I answer you. That's fine. 

Instead of using word to describes me and what about me. Pictures are much more easier and attractive to talking about me. 

 

Why am I doing on this? Firstly, I'm going to use this as the introduction tools during the table facilitator, which requested by chair. Second, I saw it very interesting, that's why I putting here. hehe

Rather said this is intro, I would said this is nowadays interests and lifestyle of a girl that stepping into women. (Yaya, God of time already took quarter of mine life...-_-'')

Starting on the left upperside, travel become mine greatest interests especially when I already dream to fly when I was kid. I believe travel can chage human perspection and also feeling. By looking different of places and nature, i get attracted to the beauty and adorable of what mine eyes saw. That's why it develop me to the interest of photography, in order to take all of it...

The experience of travel always to be fantastic and unforgetable, especially the first taste you eat their local foods; the first experiences you taking trishaw, the first experiences you speak other language..... All these feeling were so "Wau!!" and excited.

Hence slowly and without noticed, I can't decline the desire of food. [Gosh!! it just torture by looking all delicious without take a bite on it. ] At the same time, the passion of knowing diversity of people, culture, languages, lifestyle was developed and these include the acceptance of diversity. People was unique!!!

After all. exercise to balance the healthy.  Just like what old people like to mumble on young generation: Do it, else you will regret when you look like me(rest of life with medicine accompany)!!

Opps! I forget small in middle one. That's engineering which I took now and also mine past 5 years. But will I continue on it? let's see how after 5 years. Hihi... 

That's was pretty much of me! Ciao!